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My brain is constantly thinking of ways to look at something sexual without maybe crossing the line of using porn. I know deep down that I shouldn’t be them, but sometimes my brain provides some kind of rationale that tricks me in the moment.
This post is a list of all of the ways my brain tries to get me to view porn or something sexual. I need a place to record them. I need to get them out into the universe and outside of my head. I think that will help me from acting on them.
WARNING: This post WILL contain triggers, and please do not use this to get ideas. All of these are terrible ideas, and should not be pursued.
Search a porn stars name I can remember.
This one is sooooo dumb. I don’t know why this one enters my head so often. It’s almost like, well I didn’t search for porn, just a name. My brain says to me, “Search it, it is fine, just to see what her face looks like because you haven’t seen it in so long.”
I don’t think I really need to explain why this one is a bad idea. You don’t need to see that porn star ever again. Don’t search for him/her in any way. That means no Google, Yahoo, Youtube, Twitter, Facebook, Reddit, or anything. I don’t care if the site has all the adult filters on, just don’t do it.
Go find some sexual videos on YouTube
This one has gotten me multiple times as well. “YouTube doesn’t allow porn, you are fine!” Well, the thing is, that YouTube has some very sexual stuff. Maybe hardcore porn isn’t allowed, and even then you can find it if you look hard enough, but very sexual things exist.
Here are some of the things you can find, and are 100% not allowed:
- Wet T-Shirt contests
- Girls wearing thongs
- Twerking videos
- Girls making out
- Topless protestors
- People having orgasms with clothes on
- Breast surgery before/afters
- Nude runway models
- Sex tips/instructional sex videos
- Cosplay with lots of skin showing
- Any video of a porn actor/actress
- Anything that involves nudity (usually some kind of art)
- Sex scenes from movies
- Videos of real dolls or other sex toys
- Strippers or strip teases
- Bikini models
- Piercing, Tattooing, or waxing private parts
- People with transparent clothing
- Really anything sexual
Search Yelp for strip clubs
This one got me recently. The more apps I delete or website I block, the more desperate “that part of my brain” gets.
Don’t try this, but if you search for strip clubs on yelp, you can find some have a few picture of the strippers, usually in lingerie. Come on man! This is porn! Don’t even think about it.
Find porn or scantily clad women on social media (Reddit, facebook, twitter)
This one was my crux. It was impossible for me to make progress at this and still use Reddit, facebook, and twitter.
Porn is too accessible on these. I don’t care what filter you put on, porn is right around the corner.
Probably 1/4 of reddit is porn… Don’t go on it. This one hurt me a lot. I used to go on reddit 2-4 hours a day. I did not see any progress until I cut it out. I highly advise anyone trying to quit porn to do the same.
While Facebook has some filters, they are not enough for a struggling porn addict. Before I removed access to Facebook, a few times I found myself on pages I shouldn’t be on. People create these pages to get followers so they can hopefully make money off of them. They title the page or group something like “People Who Like Big Boobs” and then post images and videos which just barely meet facebook’s nudity/sexual content limits. This of course, get them the highest amount of likes. It also makes it really bad for those with a porn addiction.
Porn is allowed on twitter. And if you have a porn addiction, you will find it. I did. I do not allow myself on Twitter anymore. There are too many pornstars trying to gain a following on Twitter. And if you are tempted to see if your favorite pornstar has a Twitter page with nudes, the answer is yes. Don’t even look.
Snapchat and Instagram
Both of these allow you to follow posts of specific people. You can easily follow and get updates from pornstars or even just view their profile.
In addition, they both have a discover page. In snapchat they have stories you can view of events that often have provocative images. In Instagram, you can find profiles of scantily clad women with a few button taps. Stay away from Instagram and Snapchat.